The Scintilla Project is great for my poor neglected blog! I now have to write every day, so this is a new thing. We’ll see how it goes, but I am determined to get through the whole two weeks!
Two prompts are offered each day, and again I chose number one:
1. What’s the biggest lie you’ve ever told? Why? Would you tell the truth now, if you could?
This is a toughie! I guess it depends on how you define “big” when it comes to lies. Maybe I’ll just go with the one I feel most guilty about.
It’s funny; the first story I told occurred when I was 20 years old. The one I’m about to tell occurred when I was 19. I suppose things were a lot more interesting in my life back then. But not always in a good way.
I was a very late bloomer. I didn’t reach puberty until age 16 and had zero interest in “boys” and things of that nature for quite a long time after that. I remember at that age being with a group of friends, goofing around out in the woods. The only guy in the group and another girl suddenly disappeared, and after awhile we went looking for them. What a shock it was when we did find them – in flagrante delicto! – although when I think back, I was probably the only one who was inexperienced enough to have never seen anything like that before.
So now we fast-forward: I’m 18 years old, still living at home – still inexperienced! – and I’ve been friends with my manager at work, who is 23, for a couple of years. He has recently broken up with his girlfriend and things are definitely getting more friendly between us. So, in preparation for what I know is going to eventually happen, I pick up a brochure about birth control at Planned Parenthood. (Because parenthood was not on my list of future goals.)
Eventually my mother found the brochure in a desk drawer in my room. Until then, I had no idea she was snooping around in there! (Wonder how long that had been going on!) Well, she went ballistic when she found the brochure. She knew I was getting friendly with my manager and she did NOT approve of him. (I could do better! Why would I waste my life on HIM?! What was I thinking? And even worse, birth control pills do horrible things to your body! They can even KILL you!!!)
My mother tended to be very dramatic.
So I did it. I told a big, fat, whopping, huge, lie.
“Oh no, it’ s nothing like that. We were given those brochures at school last year. I forgot I even had it and I never did read it. I have no reason to use birth control pills.” Yada-yada…
Well, she bought it. Hook, line and sinker. Maybe she was so traumatized by the idea of me – OMG! – having relations! – that she was more willing to accept my lie. I really did sell it, though. Acted nonchalant and shrugged, the whole nine yards. So maybe she really did believe me. I’ll never know, since I never told her the truth and now she’s gone.
I still feel kind of guilty about that lie. As it turned out, my mother was right. I COULD do better, and he WAS a waste of time, and while birth control pills never killed me (LOL!), they did make me bloated and cranky sometimes. 🙂
Would I take it back if I could? I actually wouldn’t. We both felt better after I told the lie and there were some things I’m sure she was happier not knowing.